Attitude of Gratitude

Today was my heart was full of gratitude all day and for me that is nothing to take for granted. Last night I finished a book that really resonated with me. It wasn’t on recovery or a self-help book, but instead it was about a man trying to find his true self after being kidnapped when he was one day old and then again being abandoned at 18 months old. Wow! You talk about a nightmare of issues.

When I was in my mid teens I always knew I was different, that there was definitely something wrong with me. I was already on the hunt to find a cure for my feelings of being uncomfortable in my own skin, like a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. But then I got married and thought all would be right in my world; I thought I had found my place. Let’s just say that I soon realized that wasn’t going to fix me either.

Since being in recovery I realize that yes I have had my struggles and that I certainly am not perfect, but instead I am a work in progress thanks to my God who chose to make me imperfect. Next Saturday I will celebrate 25 years of sobriety. Wow I am so very blessed to be on this journey of life living with out an active dependence an any mood alternating substance! Thanks to the directions I found in recovery I have a guide to help me determine the right choices on how to live one day at a time. One of the first things I learn was that I could start my day over as many times as I needed. Now I have the ability to make choices; something I never really understood because I was always so busy trying to please others, and manage my emotions and lives of those close to me.

Tonight I am at peace; I had a very productive day and that is good enough for me at this moment. I still battle with the idea of doing things perfectly, but not as often as I use to; progress not perfection. I hope you have a good evening and a night full of peaceful sleep and wake feeling rested and ready to face the new day. That is a gift of God’s grace.