Good morning,
Sometimes the storms of life are hard to handle without the crutch of my drug of choice. Life has taught me to pray to my God, surrender the situation and pray for the person(s) and find some gratitude for what I have.
I really try to see the upside of life no matter what. I feel that without some grace and gratitude I would have nothing. “God can; I can’t, so I think I will let him.” This all sounds easy, but when I are amiss of the storm it really isn’t. I want to take control and just try to change the situation for the better, but I can’t. The only thing I can change is my attitude and willingness to let go of the wheel and surrender.
Sometimes I start thinking about and waiting for the other shoe to drop. That is certainly taking my control back from my higher power. I forget all about my HP and am waiting and not acting in a positive manner. It is crazy the way things can trigger me back to my old ways of thinking. I have grown so much since being sober and the only thing I can do is to change my behavior and anxiety is to pray my God to remove the feeling.
Today I don’t have a ton to do and I’m thankful for that. It has been a busy week again. I am thankful I can get out and do things I need to and enjoy living, not getting too dragged out physically and emotionally.
I am going back to helping my lady friend with her errands today and am very happy to begin able to do that. I had a good report from the doctor yesterday, and I am very thankful. I just have to continue my therapy and eventually, a couple months from now, my hand will be all better. He says it takes 3-4 to months for the cartilage to totally heal my new thumb joint.
Today it looks like rain and I’m gonna take my raincoat with me. I can’t control the rain, but I can do the next right thing to be prepared and accept.
This morning I am good and happy my friends and family are OK at this moment. I am thankful for good rest l got last night. Lastly, I will try to take life as it comes today and have an attitude of gratitude, not taking my life for granted.
Have a good day.
Love, Rose.