April 14
Good morning,
Conflict is a disruption and distraction I don’t care to have in my life. I have a situation presently that is causing me to feel uncomfortable and not feel good about my involvement. Things like this evolve because I don’t use my voice and stand up for what so feel and believe. This is something I am trying to pray about and just want to believe things will work out for the best. However, I do have to do the footwork and say my peace. I pray I get the answers I need regarding this conflict and uncomfortableness I am feeling within myself. I do know that if I don’t deal with this that it could and probably will turn into a resentment. I certainly don’t need that disrupting my peace or my relationships at work. Although it is entirely up to me how much time and energy I want to give this situation.
This morning I will pray for guidance and have some quiet time.
I am thankful that I am aware of how I feel. There have been so many times in my life where instead of feeling I chose to drink. Today my awareness is half of the battle; the others half is taking action. I always have choices and what I choose all depends on my conscious contact with my Higher Power. Today gratitude gives me comfort and relieves me of the bondage of self.
Ok time to get quiet and let mindfulness relieve the chaos in my brain.
Have a great day. 💕
April 16
Good morning,
Not so long along ago I read somewhere that how you start your day is how the rest of the day will go. Today I am feeling pretty tired without much gas in my tank. Now the choice is how do I want the rest of my day to go? I could be miserable because I feel exhausted or I can shake it off and move forward to the next thing that needs to get accomplished today. Today I have the choice and recognize that I do have a choice of how I feel and how I want to act. Back when I was drinking I would just go with my feelings and not think about having a choice of how I wanted my day to go. I would just drink some more and be miserable or pick a fight with my partner. Today I am thankful for all of the choices my sobriety has given me. My sobriety is truly a blessing that would not be possible if not for my faith and willingness to move forward no matter what. Without growth there would be no life. I have to go with the flow, grow and change to accommodate the new experiences yet to come. I am thankful I can take things one at a time today and do not have to tackle everything today all at once.
I am thankful for my coffee and my quiet time so I rejuvenate my battery.
I hope you have a wonderful day and let’s take one thing on at a time.
April 19
Good morning,
I often forget that I am beautifully and perfectly made; that being different is actually my strength coming through from the other side of fear. I have been given the strength to continue to move forward no matter what situation with the help and the guidance of a power greater than myself. I am thankful that I have the life I have today.
We watched the ‘War of the roses’ last. What a powerful movie that is. It certainly reminded me that being sober is the right and best thing for me today. Well I am off to go to the gym. I have another busy day ahead of me.
Have a wonderful day and remember you are perfectly and beautifully made.