Good morning,
I have always struggled with not feeling normal and trying to fit my square being into a round hole. What is normal anyways? Is there really such a thing or is it an illusion much like my illusion that I was a normal drinker. My disease and uncomfortably try’s to get me to believe that I am different, but the reality is that I am just like you, but with different characteristics. Today I may not have the same characteristics as you, but I am normal for me. I fit into the spot that feels deeply and loves hard. That isn’t such a bad place to fit into.
I haven’t written in a couple of days and thought that I no longer have anything to say, but there is always something that can be said about life and gratitude; I just have to dig deeper on some days. Yesterday was a good and busy day; I am thankful for being able to live life as I want to not as how I have to, and I am thankful for the choices I have today. They make my life much more interesting.
Well I am off to begin my journey for today. It is after all one day at a time.
Have a day filled with inspiration to do more and to be more then comfortable.
Love Me
April 25
Good morning,
Today I will seek out someone to share my experience strength and hope. I can only keep what I have by freely giving it away. I am grateful for the courage and strength AA has given me. When I was drinking I was always thinking about what you could do for me in return for my help. Today not so much. I am a work in progress and my imperfections sometimes win. I can give my selfishness to my God and ask for the courage and strength to be vulnerable enough to help another sick and suffering person. I am thankful for the opportunities I have today to do better and be better. I am thankful for my health and life today. All I have to do is to look around to find gratitude with what I have today. I am thankful for the others who reach out to me today. I need you to help me stay positive and focused on my sobriety today.
Today I am going to the gym even though my back is hurting. No pain no gain. Yup that is how it works, and I am going to work it carefully. Have a wonderful day, and I hope you can find gratitude for all you have been given one day at a time.